She Could Be Any Of Us

The military community has been sent reeling the past couple days, following the news of a mother killing her two young children, the family dog, and herself, while her airman husband was out of the country.

I know the neighborhood this lady lived in.  While close to one of the largest Army installations, it’s not a military community; instead, it’s a civilian neighborhood.

I can’t say I know this woman’s life or her struggles.  I don’t know the state of her marriage or the challenges she faced with her children.  News reports indicate the the day prior to the bodies being discovered, this wife had been at a neighbor’s home, seemed incoherent and had asked if, “God would forgive her.”

What I do know is that this entire situation is a terrible tragedy.

I also know the loneliness that can accompany a separation, coupled with the sleepless nights that occasioned by raising children, and stressors of feeling as though you have to hold everything together, create a significant amount of stress on a caregiver.

This wife, mother, and friend could be me.

She could be any one of us!

If I did not have the coping skills and mechanisms I have spent years cultivating, I could be in her shoes.  If I did not have the ability to step out of the emotionality that can accompany deployments or separations, I could be in her shoes.  If I could not keep perspective that the separation is time-limited, I could be in her shoes.

I have learned to be busy during deployments and separations – so busy, I become weary by the end of the day and collapse in bed at night.

This last deployment, I started experiencing insomnia.  That makes nights some of the most lonely and difficult hours of a deployment, when a person is left alone with their thoughts.

Insomnia, of course, increases fatigue.  And when you’re tired, judgment becomes impaired.  Had I not found something else to occupy my mind, I can see how the thoughts could have turned into those of despair and despondence.

My neighbors would have never known because we had never taken time to get to know each other.

In general, we live in such an isolated society, even surrounded by throngs of people.  All too often, military families are crushed with the weight of caring for themselves and others in their military community.  Living in a civilian community adds a component of isolation.

So, please, if you are a civilian, reach out to that new military family in your neighborhood.  If you are a military family, reach out to your new civilian neighbors when you move.

Suicide isn’t a military thing – it’s an “everyone act.”  We can all reach a breaking point.

Suicide doesn’t impact just one person – it impacts entire communities.

As a society, we need to learn to support, and be willing to lean on, one another.

Finally, please know your resources.  If you are afraid for the safety of someone, do not hesitate to call your local law enforcement for a wellness check – they can determine if someone is truly okay, or if further intervention is needed.  When in doubt, call – you may never be thanked for the call, but you just might save a life.

If you are contemplating suicide, please contact the National Suicide Prevention Lifeline, at 1-800-273-8255.

If you are military-affiliated, you can also contact Military OneSource for help and assistance at 1-800-342-9647.

None of us need to suffer in silence, and none of us need to suffer alone.


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  1. Thank you for sharing this. So sad. And you are so right…we need to work on building community.

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  2. My thoughts exactly Anni. Thanks for articulating this. We hear about PTSD suicide but never about wives. We’re the neighbors civilian and just didn’t understand? Why did they let her and her babies leave their home? Was she, as some are suggesting, struggling with mental illness or just SO overwhelmed by separation and loneliness? So tragic. So many unanswered questions. Such a loss of life!

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    • Thank you, Sarah. My heart goes out to her family and neighbors, regardless of her mental health. Even without mental health issues, separations are HARD. And, I think it sheds light on the importance of building community with our neighbors, regardless of our backgrounds! And, needing to know our local resources…

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  3. I am so sorry! How awful! I’ll pray for the family.

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  4. When I first learned of this tragedy …. my heart ached for all those involved — from the children, family pet, wife, and the deployed husband too. One may never know “the rest of the story” as to why things unfolded the way they did, but sharing this blog and the 1-800 numbers listed, may, in fact, help save another life one day in the future. Well composed blog — So worthy of sharing!

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  5. This is such a beautiful way to look at this tragedy – “I could be in her shoes”. Absolutely! None of us are exempt from this happening. Let’s be that hand and heart that reaches out in love to those around us. We never know who is struggling and in need of some love. Will definitely be sharing!!

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  6. As a Military spouse who served 28 years along side her husband I can’t thank you enough for your wise words. Those of us who have survived the life and the deployments need to come along side those who are “new” at this and support them in any way possible. I am guilty of not stepping up. I won’t let it happen again.

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  7. life is just so hard anymore. so isolated. and often when trying to get to know neighbors, it doesn’t work well. 😦

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