They say that small children, babies in particular, experience a sleep regression prior to developing a new skill. With my son, I spent time playing around with the Wonder Weeks app and e-book, staying up to date on what was supposed to come next. With my daughter, I can barely remember how many months old she is, let alone how many weeks old.
I have spent the better part of this move keeping track of my stress levels, so as to not impact the children too much. Children feed off stress, and the last thing I wanted to do was to contribute to M having more anxiety, or E starting to experience baby-anxiety. So, I have done quite a few breathing exercises, while remembering the mantra, “Jesus, I trust in You.” I know God has a plan, and ultimately, it is His will that will be done, not mine. So, I have been relying on that belief.
Last week, E stopped sleeping through the night. For several nights, every. single. time she was put down, no matter how gently, her eyes would pop open and she would cry until she was being held again. Try as I might, I couldn’t quite figure out how to lower my stress level, especially beginning to become sleep deprived since I was holding E more hours than I was sleeping, so as to facilitate her sleeping.
Until she achieved her next milestone – sitting up on her own.
You see, I forgot that sleep regressions accompany milestone achievements. So, while she was working on staying close to her mama, because she was getting ready for a new step in her development, I was beating myself up for not keeping my stress levels in check.
The joke was on me!
I now have my precocious preschooler, and a little girl who is working very hard to catch up to her big brother. I am so thrilled to see another milestone under E’s belt!
If your compassion does not include yourself, it is incomplete.
I need to remember to cut myself some slack, to have compassion for myself, breathe when life gets a little harried, and continue to remind myself, “Jesus, I trust in You.”