Prayer Life this Nineveh 90

This Lent has been an experience for me. Actually, this entire Nineveh 90 (N90) experience has been eye opening.

At the beginning of Lent, I stumbled on an article encouraging people to not just give something up, but to pray while giving something up. Reading the article was an ah-ha moment for me – but, instead of applying it to Lent, I applied it to my fasting and prayer life for the N90.

N90 has certainly helped teach me a few lessons – about myself, and about my faith life.

Prayer Life this Nineveh 90

Prayer is integral to the N90 challenge – daily Rosary, the Angelus three times a day, and some other prayers affiliated with the Angelic Warfare Confraternity. In addition to the prayers already set on my alarm (Divine Mercy at 3 PM, and a prayer time for my husband), I confessed to our chaplain that I was tired of talking to God. In fact, I specifically had an experience in which my prayer alarm went off, I looked at it, and as I turned it off, told God I just did not want, nor was I willing, to pray.

Based on our conversation, the chaplain encouraged me to stop living by my prayer alarms. Instead, he encouraged me to become more spontaneous in my prayers, and foster the personal connection with God which included talking to Him, but also listening to Him. Because of the kids’ ages and small child shenanigans, we haven’t made it to Adoration, but I have spent more time in spontaneous, enriching prayer, than the outset of the challenge.

I was becoming discouraged that I wasn’t remembering words to some of the prayers and the chaplain’s recommendation was, in those times, to pray them anyway – even if I am just reading the prayers.

Furthermore, I struggle with not feeling prayers. I envy people who are moved by prayer, but it is extremely rare for me to be moved by the words or the action of praying.  When I lamented this to our chaplain, he advised to, “Say them anyway.” Even if I feel as though all I am doing is reading a set of prayers, or simply saying them, he was emphatic in his instruction – pray anyway.

Pray Anyway

Prayer is a lifeline to our lifelong friend and companion – God. It invites Him into our day, and into our life. Praying to Him is an invitation – into our lives, and into a deeper relationship with us, whether the prayer is memorized and scripted, or spontaneous and unplanned. It is a way to signal the closeness we desire with Him – whether we are in a field, in a church, driving a car full of rambunctious children. He doesn’t care where or how we pray – He just desires that we want to talk to Him. And, it’s a way to deepen our friendship and relationship with Him. As St. Teresa of Avila is credited with saying,St. Teresa of Avila prayer quote

N90 is a marathon, not a sprint. It is about building discipline – and, that includes spiritual discipline.

It is about building the discipline of putting my friendship with God on the front burner of my life, instead of having it linger on the back burner.

So, while I haven’t quite figured out the nitty gritty components of the N90 challenge, I’m pretty sure I’m getting one lesson under my belt…

Pray Anyway!

10 thoughts on “Prayer Life this Nineveh 90

  1. Prayer is any time you think, pray, or sing with God in mind. Organized or memorized prayers are only one way to pray. Singing the songs from church or Christian songs are prayer, which is why we sing in church.

    As a humorous aside….I was cleaning the stalls in the barn the other night and invited God to join me in my activity (however distasteful!). As I invited with Him I realized the humor in inviting Him to the place where Jesus began his blessed life! Surely He would like to invite ME to join Him in His birthplace. So we spoke at length about just about everything! And we laughed about the sarcasm.

    So pray always and laugh wherever you are and speak to Him however you feel you communicate best.

  2. I’ve been wondering how this spiritual marathon is going for you. Thanks for the peek.

    Pray anyway! What a worthy lesson. 🙂

    1. Oh, you have many more peeks coming!! I realized when doing this update, if I did everything in one fell swoop, I’d wind up with a multiple tens of thousands of words on one blog post… so, trust me – more will be forthcoming… after Easter, since next week is all Holy Week related!

  3. “Say them anyway” – – – I like that advice. More to the point, it’s pretty much what I gather that the Church says about prayer.

    My guess is that it’s like what we’re told about emotions, virtue, and what matters: “Strong feelings are not decisive for the morality or the holiness of persons….” (Catechism, 1768)

    About prayer, feelings, and all that, I think you’re in good company. One of Saint Teresa of Calcutta’s letters included this bit: “Often I wonder what does really God get from me in this state — no faith, no love — not even in feelings…..” So she got out her rosary, and started praying anyway.

    (Now, shameless self-promotion. I got part of a post out of that: “Mother Teresa: ‘The Moment Passed'” )

    1. Thank you! I will be going back to check that “shameless” plug in the next couple days! It’s good to know, though, that even she struggled with “no love – not even in feelings” because I have felt that too often in my life… :-/

      Thanks for the encouragement!

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